Reality check.

I am not here to make raising five children seem like a Leave It to Beaver episode.  I am just trying to raise my babies the best way I know how.  I am just trying to keep it real.  I just had my last four months ago.  Are we going to have more who knows, God knows and I guess that's how I'll leave it.  I wish I could go to church more, but we don't.  I do a lot of things and sometimes my crafting takes me away from me away from my kids.  But because I have five kids I am brought back, quickly, to reality!  I still have 30lbs to lose and I am still battling acne from my early teens.  I have pulled away from certain things because of how I look half the time.  But I do try to get all nice for the occasional doctors visit, er visit or dental visit.  After renewing my drivers license and having to take my picture over again, I am so unhappy with how I look.  I think that is pretty normal for a women who has had children and just tired all the time.  I am happy with how my life is now and my dh has told me recently that he wish he could have a care free attitude about my looks and how I talk so to the point!  But that isn't always a good thing!  I just try to be who I am and yes just like anyone else I have insecurities.  But thank God that my last baby is a happy one, for now at least!  He is teething and I know that every baby reacts differently in certain situations.  I just hope that my family stays healthy and we all can live long, happy, healthy lives!!!!!