Reality check.

I am not here to make raising five children seem like a Leave It to Beaver episode.  I am just trying to raise my babies the best way I know how.  I am just trying to keep it real.  I just had my last four months ago.  Are we going to have more who knows, God knows and I guess that's how I'll leave it.  I wish I could go to church more, but we don't.  I do a lot of things and sometimes my crafting takes me away from me away from my kids.  But because I have five kids I am brought back, quickly, to reality!  I still have 30lbs to lose and I am still battling acne from my early teens.  I have pulled away from certain things because of how I look half the time.  But I do try to get all nice for the occasional doctors visit, er visit or dental visit.  After renewing my drivers license and having to take my picture over again, I am so unhappy with how I look.  I think that is pretty normal for a women who has had children and just tired all the time.  I am happy with how my life is now and my dh has told me recently that he wish he could have a care free attitude about my looks and how I talk so to the point!  But that isn't always a good thing!  I just try to be who I am and yes just like anyone else I have insecurities.  But thank God that my last baby is a happy one, for now at least!  He is teething and I know that every baby reacts differently in certain situations.  I just hope that my family stays healthy and we all can live long, happy, healthy lives!!!!!

Schools out...

so now all 5 kids are home with me all day.  We have started a little routine, everyone is usually awake by 11 and then I set up the pool, around 12 everyone gets in and plays while I cook lunch.  Then everyone comes back in to eat and then they play in the house, cook dinner and then off to the park.  So about 9 pm the day is done!! Then they stay up until 10 and everyone is in bed.  I know too exciting!  The pool just opened here and way too expensive just to be there for a couple of hours.  To go to the pool would have to be an all day type of thing.  And on top of the pool being pricey, you have to pay to park in the parking lot.  Yes residents have to pay to park, unless there is parking on the street available.  Damien has about 14 cloth diapers and I still have about 6 more to make.  I started to knit again, I decided to knit a shawl.  Haven't decided who will get it though.  So between cooking, cleaning and raising children I don't know how I am able to do anything for myself.  I think that's why I go to bed around midnight.