Been awhile......

since my last post, but every now and then I feel the need to write.  So obviously school has started and my middle child just started pre-k.  He was so scared at first then so excited to meet new people.  After I picked him up the first thing he'll tell you about was that he got a cookie as a snack with juice!!!  I am happy that he is happy and he also told me that he wanted to sleep there!  My little girl went into the third grade and is now in elementary school by herself because big brother in now in middle school.  Next year she will have company from her little brother!  Damien is now 'crawling'.  I say it like that because it's his way of crawling.  He scoots or rolls to what he wants.  He is trying to crawl normally I guess you could say.  He is such a happy little boy and has also started solids, I have decided to put this baby on all organic baby food. My husband and myself feel that it would be a better option!  We are currently trying to be more healthy in what we consume, we are not perfect and succumb to our desires!!  But we do try and mean well.  Now to my lovely little two year old, who is now deep in his terrible twos.  We have called him our little man toddler because he is so manly for his age, that I have noticed that he is becoming more sensitive than usual.  I don't mind that he is doing this, it's just now it can be followed with shrills of super sensitivity that someone was not very kind to him or he just really wants what they have.  But the best thing is that we have our health.  We also went our very first vacation to Florida.  We visited my dad and his wife Ramona.  She is such a lovely woman!  I am happy that he is happy.  At the end of the day that's all that matters!!!  I know this it's late in the game to make a resolution, but I have made my very own personal resolution and so far I so satisfied with it.  I know that I will slip up, but this a life changer that I am hoping for.  Pictures of updates and our first vacation will soon come!

Reality check.

I am not here to make raising five children seem like a Leave It to Beaver episode.  I am just trying to raise my babies the best way I know how.  I am just trying to keep it real.  I just had my last four months ago.  Are we going to have more who knows, God knows and I guess that's how I'll leave it.  I wish I could go to church more, but we don't.  I do a lot of things and sometimes my crafting takes me away from me away from my kids.  But because I have five kids I am brought back, quickly, to reality!  I still have 30lbs to lose and I am still battling acne from my early teens.  I have pulled away from certain things because of how I look half the time.  But I do try to get all nice for the occasional doctors visit, er visit or dental visit.  After renewing my drivers license and having to take my picture over again, I am so unhappy with how I look.  I think that is pretty normal for a women who has had children and just tired all the time.  I am happy with how my life is now and my dh has told me recently that he wish he could have a care free attitude about my looks and how I talk so to the point!  But that isn't always a good thing!  I just try to be who I am and yes just like anyone else I have insecurities.  But thank God that my last baby is a happy one, for now at least!  He is teething and I know that every baby reacts differently in certain situations.  I just hope that my family stays healthy and we all can live long, happy, healthy lives!!!!!

Schools out...

so now all 5 kids are home with me all day.  We have started a little routine, everyone is usually awake by 11 and then I set up the pool, around 12 everyone gets in and plays while I cook lunch.  Then everyone comes back in to eat and then they play in the house, cook dinner and then off to the park.  So about 9 pm the day is done!! Then they stay up until 10 and everyone is in bed.  I know too exciting!  The pool just opened here and way too expensive just to be there for a couple of hours.  To go to the pool would have to be an all day type of thing.  And on top of the pool being pricey, you have to pay to park in the parking lot.  Yes residents have to pay to park, unless there is parking on the street available.  Damien has about 14 cloth diapers and I still have about 6 more to make.  I started to knit again, I decided to knit a shawl.  Haven't decided who will get it though.  So between cooking, cleaning and raising children I don't know how I am able to do anything for myself.  I think that's why I go to bed around midnight. 

Laundry, what laundry?!?!

Yes that's right what laundry?!?!  I was able to wash ALL the laundry, though this may or may not happen again.  Since being pregnant, it has been a long time since this has happened.  So as one can see I am very proud of myself!!!  I am trying to finish more diapers for Damien and just don't have any motivation.  I did have some made but then realized that he was too big for them and that he was not of average weight when he was born.  I am stupid for not realizing that!!!  had to modify a previous design to fit him, haven't finished the first one yet.  Busy busy busy.  I feel like I don't know where the days go sometimes.  Soon i think it'll get better, the two oldest have spring break next week.  So hopefully I'll survive!

Tonya

Little sleep because of....

our latest addition, Damien.  He was born on March 3, 2011 at 7:12 am.  He was 9lbs 10ozs and 21 1/2 inches long.  He is such a beautiful little man!  His brothers and sister are so happy with our little addition.  I went through a couple of rough nights getting used to him and Corvin still not sleeping all night.  But I was able to make it, I don't know how, but I did.  There are still some jealous moments, but that is to be expected!  My husband, Frankie, has been a real big help and many thanks go to him.  Also to my mother in law she is awesome for coming to help us out, too!  More to come when I am able to get more sleep and everything in order and get comfortable, as in used to five!!!

Sore ribs and contractions...

Can't believe that I am still sick, had to go to the hospital to see what is really going on.  So i am assuming that the antibiotics they gave will fix it.  It did, but now that the coughing has nearly stopped the ribs on the right have been through hell and now I have pulled a muscle.  Too much pain, I would rather be in labor everyday than deal with this.  So if one thing has stopped something else has to start.  I have had contractions all day yesterday.  They were coming 3-4 times an hour.  I had to tell my husband that if they continued that I would have to call my doc today.  So I will wait and while I am waiting I have to take the boys to their doctor because we have the same nasty sick bug.  Did I mention that it is only 15 deg outside!

Serious coughing, snow day and cloth diapers......

I still have this horrible cough and it has caused me to loose my voice.  So now trying to stop minuscule arguments is becoming stupid, to say the least.  Let them fight it out I am tired and seriously it really isn't worth it.  I have been stuck with my two youngest for almost three weeks can't really go anywhere because I am up all night coughing!  Anyway on to the cloth diaper issues, my husband doesn't understand how I feel like I have failed because our baby kept getting a horrible diaper rash and unfortunately he is one of those children whose skin is just too sensitive for them and can't handle cloth diapers.  Well I have a supply for this one coming and still need to finish making newborn sized cloth diapers!!  I am hoping that this baby coming isn't too big or I will have wasted time, money and supplies making them for him.  But I will have to wait and see.  Today is a snow day so all kids are home today and it just stopped snowing this morning, very beautiful and for those who have never been in the snow before it is very peaceful.  I love to take the trash out when it has snowed because it is so quiet!  I couldn't get that in my house!!  Here are some pictures of the Christmas snow and other randomness...

No Resolution

I really don't make any resolutions because I can not keep it, so I cant be let down in the middle of the year.  I do try to improve things just not making any promises.  Kids were happy to get what they wanted and got to see family yesterday.  I have been in a crafting rut lately, with all of us being sick and just tired as I am now 32 weeks along with number 5.  Very tired and my hips are not too happy that I am having just one more little man.  Went to get my kids in the car this morning and of course again one of the doors were frozen shut.  It had to be the door that the babies carseat is in too!  Also, a toy that Santa brought for Donovan broke, thankfully the lovely people at toys'r'us were very understanding and were able to exchange it for a nice new one.  Now that my two oldest are in school again, I am waiting the impending homework and projects and playdates that they would love to go on!